Bad Religion

As days past, I just can't seemingly forget every small detail of her. From the first time we talked, We met, we struggled, we cared for each other, I knew she is the girl i have been finding all this while. Many have come and go, few stayed. I still clinch on to my phone 24/7 expecting a text from you till this day. We made the decision that it is best if we stayed as friends. We tried to make the jump to be together but She felt i'm better off with someone worthy. Unlike others, i tend to not leave someone i like that easily, it took me half a year to forget someone i truly love before you and now here i am experiencing it again. Its a habit of me, some sort of a Bad Religion that i follow.

This unrequited love, it has all been just a one man cult. Where i would love someone knowing that she doesn't have the same affection towards me. Yes we started off with a good start, getting to know each other more as time goes by. We grow fond of each other so fast it was just like a dream come true.

Now the landscape has changed. We dont talk often anymore yet we want the best for each other, to succeed in our education and be happy. Everytime I pray that she would find someone who can make her smile, laugh and stay with her through the bad times but so far, All I've seen are just the worst people out there, Coming in and then leaving her as if her heart is a hotel. Some stayed, but behind those mask there wear. are mostly lies when their dm's are filled with him trying to hit on another. Worse of all there is proof of them doing it.

It could be jealousy or fear when i see what they are doing. I cant just stop myself from looking at her from a far. Being there for her all the time, checking up with her and making sure she is happy because that is all i wanted to hear.

I try my best till this day to keep reminding myself that we no longer have any affection towards each other and that we are just better off to be friends but, a small part of me in my heart even after everything is whispering to me to "Stay". I guess what she said to me was right after all. My love has never been temporary.

I know i cant be the dream prince that you want as a future husband, the father to your kids, the one who can bring u happiness always but i know for a fact that, Through every ups and downs, every struggle i face, i will never ever give up on love and always try to do what you always told me to be, being myself. You saw everything what happen through the year yet i still stay, I guess this fighting spirit hasn't die out and it doesnt plan too yet.

Fate could bring us anywhere. We could either stay where we are at now as friends or we could push it further. For now i accept where we are and if you see this i hope it doesnt change a thing. Seeing you smile being happy with life right now makes my heart feel at warmth. If you are sad, always know im right here with you, i'll hear u out even if you are at the peak of madness i'll stay calm and let you get rid of the bad vibes inside you. Always know you are never alone okay? you have me, you have your friends. We are friends after all, we stay for each other.

With that being said always know a part of me is and will always be open for you for,

My Fellow Sailor Moon Princess

Because

Only a Bad Religion could have me feeling the way I do

&

It has only been towards you